隨便寫寫

看了許多朋友寫的2008年回顧

了無新意的我   也來寫我的

其實回顧過去一年多

腦中只有一片空白

就是工作,工作,不停的工作

I was informed that the result of the checkup wassn't good even though I am not going back to the doc till New Years' Eve. So I guess I will keep on taking medicines and do some checkup again. Yet,I thank you Lord.

As I prooff read a programme, which is talking about ppl like pharisees and scribes, they were hard to pleased. No matter what Jesus said or did, they always had something to say. So, I ask myself " am I this kind of ppl who is hard to pleased?" Generally speaking, I don't think I am. I am easy to

 pleased.   Only if  I have been tried all the way and become dicouraged/disappointed, I will simply just walk away and won't try anymore. I am not easy to get discouraged though unless you tried very hard. So once I really really feel discouraged, there is no turning back. I guess what the chinese saying"哀莫大於心死" discribe very well of this kind of situation. I can be hard to pleased at this point.

However, I think I need to repent. This attitude is terrible. It doesn't matter what others say or do. That's their problem. It's my problem though if I have this bad attitude. I wouldn't say it's gonna be easy especially sometimes you just want to protect yourself from been hurt again.  I don't hurt anybody and  shouldn't I have the right to protect myself from been hurt again? Of course, nobody deserves been mistreated but  I need to repent , too. I am not responsible for other's attitude but am responsible for mine. It doesn't matter other's attitude and how I feel but it's about a decision before the Lord. Father,sorry, I am wrong. I pray that you give me the wisdom to make the right choice everytime. I want to  forgive as you forgive me.

These came from a good friend in N.I. and I had been told that it's gonna be a surprise. So I had been wondering what's that might be  and it was a big surprise for me. First of all, she wrote everything in Mandarin. I knew she is a smart girl and has passion learning languages and kanji. But I didn't expect she would wrote everything in Mandarin. How sweet!! In addition to that, she expressed what she want to say pretty well. She even used a compound sentence.  Wow!!! I was really impressed!! I can understand 95% of it. Very proud of her!!!!

Second, I got this lovely gift. She is also good at knitting- Amigurumi. She knew my favorite colour and animal, so she knitted a yellow cat for me.It's so cute and Ilove it. I especially like the expression on its face, its nose and its colourful legs. Now that I will have company while working at night.

This is the Paddington Bear I got this morning. If you buy a cup of city coffee, 7-11 will give you a sticker . You can get one paddington bear either with three stickers plus N.T. 49, or 6 stickers for a free one. What I want to say is I think their marketing is sucessful. People like me who don't  drink coffee started drinking coffee just for it. Of course, three cups of coffee and that's it. But many ppl collects it as the bear has 6 different outfit. Besides, you

have no idea each time which bear you might get. They have wrapped it with black plastic bag in a box. It's possibe you got 6 in the same kind. So, some ppl has started drinking  city coffee instead of free coffee in the office. Anyway, I wasn't  realised  how crazy it was till this morning. After I got three stickers, I went to them for the bear. They told me that they were no more and will have some new arrival this morning. So after I arrived at the office at 8:30, I checked with two 7-11 and they were all gone. They told me that they were all gone at the nidnight last night/this morning. This is crazy.

Yes, I am still taking medicines,5 pills a day, and am going back to the doc on 31th Dec. Yes, that's right- the New Year's Eve. Just thinking about spending New Year Eve at the hospital, it's just so funny. I really thank God that I could reach out some ppl and shared the Good News that I wouldn't have the chance without this happened. Thank God that I can be a blessing in the middle of the storm. Not because I can, but because  Him. Besides, a friend told me that many ppl can't take the side effect of these medicines. As for me, it's alright. So, I will go there after work, probably after 8pm and might need to do some check up too. Will see what the doc might say.

For many ppl, Christmas means shopping, gifts and spending money. A friend of mine thinks it's too commericalism.  It's probably true in some way but I guess we  can see it in another way. There is nothing wrong to show our care and love to love ones. Besides, the point is to show our care and the gift itself isn't really matter. Well, for me and I suppose many ppl think this way. A Christmas card alone or a txtwill make my day.  We don't measure ppl's love for us with gifts ot its value, do we?  Of course, you might say that we can show our care anyday, it doesn't have to be that day. Mm, I agree with that. Anyway, what I think is businessmen might have to do their job but we don't have to let them define the meaning for us. Somehow ppl can tell if you are really care about them or not. There is no point giving expensive gifts just to make up for them or because we suppose to do that. What ppl care is do you really care about them, I think.

For me, the meaning of Christmas is all about Christ and God's love for us. We love because He loved us first. It's not because I know how to love but because He loves me first. Before I was born, He has loved me- with unconditional love. So we want to share His love with other ppl- not just our love ones. I heard ppl say that you can give without love, but you can't love without giving. So it's all about His love- to know His love for us and to share His love with others. Isn't that great to see ppl with a big  smile on their face?

快下班時 耳邊傳來陣陣放煙火的聲音

走到辦公室外露台看 卻發現是在建築物後面施放的

許多人也紛紛跑出來看

但只能透過對面建築物窗戶的反射 稍微瞥見煙火的燦爛

有同事開玩笑說 這露台有什麼用 連個煙火都看不到

放了兩個月病假

過去一年多 除了過年放假時

每天都嚴重睡眠不足的我 身體總算得到充分的休息

剛開始一想到

又要開始過那種披星戴月 完全沒有自己時間的生活 是有點小沮喪

After almost 7 weeks sick leave,I am going back to work on 1st of Dec. Now I only need to go back to the doc once a month for the next couple of months and take medicines till I full recovered . If God allows me, I might only need to take one more month medicine. We will see then.

For the first 2 days I had no peace at heart when the doc first diagnosed my sickness. Even God has words for me, I still had no peace that time. Then I choosed to believed what He said rather than what the world  told me. I knew God allows this to happen to me, so I am absolutely ok about it and had nothing to say. I knew our God is almighty and He is the one who turns curses into blessings-not just for me but also to bless other ppl. Of course, He did. I have seen His blessings from the begining of my sickness till now. We should always have faith and fix our eyes on Him and not our difficulties. Our God is bigger than our difficulities and He has conqured the death. That doesn't mean we won't suffer or hurt or things will goes as we wished finally. But we can be sure no matter what the result might be and how we do not understand sometimes, in Jeremiah 29:11, the Bible says "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end "

  耶 和 華 說 、 我 知 道 我 向 你 們 所 懷 的 意 念 、 是 賜 平 安 的 意 念 、 不 是 降 災禍 的 意 念 、 要 叫 你 們 末 後 有 指 望 。