As I prooff read a programme, which is talking about ppl like pharisees and scribes, they were hard to pleased. No matter what Jesus said or did, they always had something to say. So, I ask myself " am I this kind of ppl who is hard to pleased?" Generally speaking, I don't think I am. I am easy to
pleased. Only if I have been tried all the way and become dicouraged/disappointed, I will simply just walk away and won't try anymore. I am not easy to get discouraged though unless you tried very hard. So once I really really feel discouraged, there is no turning back. I guess what the chinese saying"哀莫大於心死" discribe very well of this kind of situation. I can be hard to pleased at this point.
However, I think I need to repent. This attitude is terrible. It doesn't matter what others say or do. That's their problem. It's my problem though if I have this bad attitude. I wouldn't say it's gonna be easy especially sometimes you just want to protect yourself from been hurt again. I don't hurt anybody and shouldn't I have the right to protect myself from been hurt again? Of course, nobody deserves been mistreated but I need to repent , too. I am not responsible for other's attitude but am responsible for mine. It doesn't matter other's attitude and how I feel but it's about a decision before the Lord. Father,sorry, I am wrong. I pray that you give me the wisdom to make the right choice everytime. I want to forgive as you forgive me.