For the past 15 months, I gradually realised that there is a lesson I need to learn - to love myself. I am not sure what other ppl think but for me , I had a wrong concept that was to love myself means selfish. There were plenty of teaching about loving other ppl, sacrifice...yet I have never heard any teaching about loving ourself here ( I have to say it's just my own personal experiences and it doesn't mean local pastors here don't teach this. It's just " I " have never heard any teaching about this). Now what I think is of course I want to love other ppl. It's selfish if I only love myself and it's all about me me me. But I feel it's also not right if one only love other ppl and doesn't love herself/himself. There must be something wrong then. I know this can happen and I felt guilty about loving myself, doing things I desire, fulfill my dreams...The second commandment, love others as you love yourself. We tend to focus on the first part- love others and ignore there is a second part, as you love yourself. Loving others should be on the fundation of loving God and yourself. Anyway, I had this wrong concept and believed the lie. I guess oriental might have more trouble about that.
I first aware of it at the end of 08 and early last year, but I only began to think about it. My life was too busy to give it a second thought . Maybe I should say I didn't really "realized" my problem, till later there were two things happened that really woke me up. These two things definetely weren't pleasant, but it was those two things led me to a full realization. I think the lesson God wants me to learn in 2010 is to love myself. I mentioned one point, the meaning of loving myself early last year. I think I was right about it but there are still other things. I have to say there are plenty for me to learn. I hope by the end of 2010, I will be able to know more about the meaning of loving myself, put it into practice and be able to say I love myself. After all, love without action is dead. 為2010年下的定義是--要愛自己的一年