隨便寫寫

Met Nev, his Taiwanese friend and Chong yesterday.

Had a walk with Billy along a toll path where horses tolled boats along the river long time ago. It was a nice trail, should fo there again some other time. Then we had  coffee at renoir. It's funny to think the reason I came here was to spsend some time with friends. I want to spare some time of my life for  them, just be with them- especially some of them are in difficult situations. I had been there so I guess I might be able to guess a bit how that feel.  Of course, I wouldn't say I understand how they feel as no cases are the same. Even we were in same situation, it doesn't mean we will have same feeling.

However, I found out they are those who support me and stand by my side. I want to  do something for them but it turns out they did a lot for me- care about me and spare their time for me. Billy thought that I was a bit depressed as I cried last time. I don't think I was depressed, it's just everytime when  I thought  some friends of mine and grandma get sick, it made me cry. That's it. It's just like I kind of accept that grandma probably will never get better and it has been a long long time. However, everytime when I thought about grandma, I still can't help stop crying. I don't wnat to see anyone of them suffer and I don't want to say this is life just like everyone else did. I was just not happy about the situation.

So after I came back and nobody answered the door, I just stayed outside waiting for them. When the lady next door came back, she saw me standing outside. She invited me to wait inside of her house and I did. We had a nice chat. In an hour, I was kind of knew her. I guess ppl here are more open to strangers-they told you everything about their marriage, family, kids and illness. THe other day, I talked with a lady inthe park. She also told me everying. Anyway, finally I txt Linda and found out they had never left the house. They were taking a nap.

8 pm. We had an international night with some of Linda's friend in  the lab- two local and one Korean. S cooked pizza, soup, chocolate cake. We also played game till 2:30 in the morning. It was fun. The Korean guy is going back to Korea and will bring his family back here. Mark whom Linda talks a lot, I finally met him. Grag, we had lunch together when I first arranged to see Linda during the first week I arrived.

Just to remind me about God's love. When I was quite upset yesterday morning, I got a txt from B saying that he is praying for me. God knows, isn't He? Every breath we take, every path we passed through, every tears we droped, every thought in our mind, every laughter, every hurts - He knows and cares. He is always there for us,  to strengen us, comfort us, if we allow Him. I really need to remember this. He is a loving father. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=72M9-kyVxsc

Got an email from Grace, saying that she doesn't expect anything to happen of her two-months journey in Canada. It's easier for her to think that way so she won't let down easier. It's funny to think that we are completely different kind of person. She is always worry too much and and too many things, while most of the time, I

 look on the bright side, yet she is my best friend ever at work. We have something similar though. Both of our friends are sick.  I am still expecting mircles while she doesn't dare to pray mircle anymore. I expect God to do something new, yet she expects nothing. I understand how she feel though. I was a bit upset during this journey so far, kind of lose my faith. Yet I thank Him that I was able to make this journey. Ok, got to cheer up. I am the only one responsible for my own happiness. And yes, this can be an amazing journey.

It was a nice day, even it rained twice. It would be such a waste staying  inside. Therefore, I walked along the riverside and Eaumond (?) park.  I think this was my second time in this park. The first time was long time ago before I left the country. I came with some friends to see the firework. Walking along the riverside, however, was something I must do everyday before it's getting really cold when I first came here. I missed it.

had dinner at Ginger Tree, the japanese resturant, with some old friends. Tan, his flatemate, Choo, Nick, Lynne and Nev. Forgot to take photoes. The hot pot was rather small compared to ours. It will probably only cost 1 pound with that kind of size and food in Taiwan, here it costs 10 pounds, however. Food is not important, having time with old friends do matter. I was glad I spent a little bit time with friends. That's the reason I am here for anyway as I don't know when we will be able to meet next time. I guess we all need to cherish every moment with those we cared. B always says that if we don't meet again, at least we will see each other in heaven. What a relief, and yet so sad.  I think when we come to the end of our life, we will all find out the only thing that matters is our relatioships with loved ones. Nothing else matter. I guess I wouldn't realize that our life is like vapor, as the Bible says, without the sickness last year. My situatuion wasn't serious at all but it will be very sad if that turned out I only realised that at the end of my life.  So we supposed to seize everyday God gives us, make the most of it .

I was a bit surprise that Nev brought Lynne with him though, kind of introduce her to everyone.  Well, maybe I wasn't that surprised.

Don't know what to believe anymore.

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after

 Went to see the Tall Ship again on Sunday with Nick, the other side of the river which I missed the day before though. Many of them had already left.